Leave me alone for a few days and I become lonesome. I feel pathetic. I wish I had a proper sibling. I'm fascinated by relationships between brother and sister, shared between those who hate each other and those who don't. I want to fight too. I feel like I've never learnt how to argue properly. Today I was wondering, that perhaps that's why I tend to seek out that particular someone to love; finding a lover compensates the loneliness I've always had as a child.

I'm such a loner that it scares me. Shawn says once you get used to it, it will be alright. I have lots of friends around, but I'm beginning to see how I use the time to escape from myself. There is something about you that makes me confront myself. Not that you're special, but you are, and I don't like it. There is something invasive about you, but I don't want you to leave. This isn't even me trying to be romantic, I just can't figure out all this conflict within this dumb little head of mine.

I teeter on the edge of losing control. Interpol makes me want to cry, but Interpol resonates with me so much more than any other band's music, so I want to wallow in these sad story worlds, in these sad songs. - Do I make sense? /Tonight I'm gonna rest my chemistry, tonight I'm gonna rest my chemistry. Is something fizzling out, because if it is then well, hello.

Leave me alone for a few days and I become lonesome. Have I told you that I feel pathetic.