tiny hatred

Someday you will find that so many things are able to break your heart, and you only have yourself to mend it back. Not even the one who swore to stick by you. Intentional forgiveness is very hard. Embracing it has incited a tiny hatred for giving in. Just a tiny one.

When I said I lost you at the altar, I really meant it. I forgot to tell you that you lost me too.

of my own failing

The things I love fail to move my boy.
I write to overthink.
I sing to tweak my voice.
I act to escape my inability, to make him see me in a new light.
I feel to cry somemore.

Differences really break my heart.
And there is nothing wrong with that, really.
Then there is nothing wrong with feeling the way I feel as well.

How Do Lovers Work Like That

you have duties and i have them too
just that i prioritize you over some of them
just that sometimes i need you to be able to work
you want to live away from me, we as separate entities
but i want to smell your feet, i want you to want to be close to me
you are independent and i am a sticky cunt


how do lovers work like that?

²³ Those who listen to the word but do not do what it says are like people who look at their faces in a mirror ²⁴ and, after looking at themselves, go away and immediately forget what they look like.


James 1:23-24


So many times I have forgotten what my face looks like, but You have not. You speak in so many ways, if only I make the effort to seek You. It's something that requires discipline, and I lack that. I attend to my studies and my playtime first, but I don't feed my spirit as often. But You are always there to meet me whenever I need You. You're always so quiet, Lord. So gentle and You wait, because You are not intrusive.